you’ve been thinking this is not enough

gifting this is not enough talent it’s

not enough money it’s not enough i don’t

have enough and jesus is whispering in

your ear tonight

your conscience is not the voice of god

but your conscience is like this wiring

that helps this microphone amplify my

voice the the conscience is the

microphone that the holy spirit uses to

help you hear the voice of god the one

thing that opens up our eyes is god’s

spirit on us and if you want if i want

god’s spirit on our lives then we got to

decide to live

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so jerry and i my husband and i we’ve

been married nearly 20 years now i can’t

believe that and we have three sons that

we are raising they are giant

they are giants y’all

my 15 year old is six foot two inches

tall

his 14 year old brother is six foot two

inches tall um their nine-year-old

brother is coming up right after them

they are some big boys and one of the

things i do for these boys in fact you

should know that my full-time job is

feeding the boys that is my full

time job i am trying to figure out any

which way i can differently to cook

chicken for dinner every single night

just like y’all that’s exactly what i’m

doing

so we just do sports and everything with

the boys they’re growing up so quick so

one of the things that i have done

since my oldest was five i started when

he was five um i went to uh ross dress

for lest in the back hand corner left

hand side there is a one row that has

books and journals and those sorts of

things i went and i grabbed um three

journals hardback journals they were

just little little um with the little

spine spiral spines nothing real fancy

4.99 i picked one for each boy i’ve had

it ever since my oldest was five

and at that age i started to record a

journal for them i do not write in it

every week or every month or even um you

know just on a regular basis it’s just

when something happens i don’t want to

forget or they say something that’s

really interesting or i see the hand the

handiwork the fingerprints of god in

their life in some way i kind of write

it down my goal is to have a collection

of writings and thoughts and and love

letters really to my boys about their

life that i hand over to them when

they’re you know mature enough to

appreciate it or better yet i might just

hand it over to their wives and say girl

this is what you’re getting yourself

into right here

and because my oldest will be 16 next

month i was looking through his journal

and came across the story from when he